Dear Subscriber,
A bit more than a year ago we left Malta and moved to Exeter.
I didn’t know what to expect and what life had in store for me. All I knew was that – whatever would happen, it would be ok.
What I didn’t expect was the difference in mentality and way of living in our new place. I also was not prepared for the difference it would make for me all of a sudden to be an accredited counsellor in the UK world of counselling and therapy. Through my supervision training I got insights and information that sometimes made me doubt if I wanted to be a counsellor here, at all.
I went through times of doubts and inner insecurity – times when sometimes only a deep trust helped me to continue and to not give up. A trust that I have developed throughout my life and through all my trainings – that whatever happens, there is a meaning, even if I might understand it only in retrospective.
Now, at the end of this first year I can say – yes, it all had a meaning. Everything that happened, that did not turn out as I had expected or had hoped for, had a meaning. It was a year of deep transformation, a year that brought me closer to myself, closer to understanding who I am and who I want to be. But also to understand what is no longer needed and ready to let go.
Through accepting everything and going with it, I experienced, in the end everything made sense and I was able to see the amazing gifts that had been given to me throughout these past 12 months. Gifts that sometimes had appeared in a first shape of disappointment and pain.
Why am I telling you all this? First of all to disclose that the life of a counsellor and family constellation facilitator is not very different from your lives. All our lives have ups and downs and we cannot see “behind the scenes”. Life is a continuous transformation. And second to transmit assurance that trust in a meaning, even if we don’t understand it in the very moment of the difficulty, will have a positive impact on our whole journey and growth. Everything brings us closer to who we are really meant to be.
And there is something else – something that I might have expressed many times in my workshops but that I feel, I want to express it again today.
My gratitude! My gratitude to all of you who support my work in Malta, who join the constellation days to support the issue holders, who have the courage to do this deep inner work of transformation, who spread the word among family and friends. Thank you that you wanted and still want me to come back.
To know that you are there, in Malta, looking forward to my next visits, being in touch every now and then and appreciating what I do was (and still is) one of the greatest gifts. Many times thinking of you makes me breathe deeply and continue on my way with a smile not only on my face, but also deep inside my heart. Thank you all for being who you are.
